Enough is enough!

     Enough is enough, those were the words I finally had to say to myself. Since I was a kid reading and writing had always been something that I had enjoyed, and for as long as I can remember, I always wanted to be a writer. I can fondly remember being told that I had a talent when I was still in elementary school, and I had entered a school wide writing contest. We were given a chance to write a short story, and our stories would be sent to the school library where other students and staff could read them, and apparently my book stood out from the rest. I would by lying if I told you that I can remember what the short story was about, but I know it had something to do with horror.

     Fast forward to where I'm at now, and in my mid 30's I needed to sit down and ask myself, have I given up on my dream? No. In life so much happens, relationships, family issues, pretty much anything that you can think of. I have written some books before, but sadly it was part of a steep learning curve that I guess every writer has to learn at some point. The fact is that the current book that I'm working on has been going on and off for the past 15 years, 15 years! I can honestly say that part of this is because I found myself working on a book, I must have been at least 3/4 of the way there when my computer crashed on me just as I was saving and backing up my file, sadly I lost everything, four years of my life had come crashing down, it was gone.

     I found myself demotivated at that point, and the frustration quietly lived in the back of my mind for about four years, I was bitter, I mean, who wouldn't be in that scenario. When I finally decided that I would start writing again I was motivated to do so, it just felt fun, and then life hit me, what a rollercoaster it has been so far, but that's a story for a whole different time. So there I was, thinking what has been holding me back? You know some people are scared, intimidated, or they just don't feel like what they want to do may be successful, but at some point you have to say, let me try. The worst thing that can happen is I just don't sell a lot of copies, and sure this path is going to be one interesting journey, but I'm all in now. I'm lucky that I work a decent job, but it's not what I wanted to do with my life.

     My mind has always been filled with one idea after another, like a constant whirlwind of creativity, and I need to finally get my story told. Like I said, 15 years, this is where I need to invest in myself, I'll never be able to have forgiven myself if I had made to my deathbed without trying this again. So here's my first post in this blog, I don't know, maybe I don't want to call it a blog, that feels kind of dated these days, but it is what it is.