A mind full of ideas, but not enough hands to write.

         Well I must admit that I have forgotten just how much I enjoy writing. When I had lost an extensive peace of work that had been taking me so long to write, I think, I have finally found that passion again. Sure, there are days writer's block sidelines my desire to keep writing, I have started to find useful tools for me to start bouncing ideas off of. I consider myself an old soul in a work filled with promising technological advances as the years go by, and sure, a lot of it excites me, but sometimes, I find myself going back often to old fashioned pen and paper. 

        I'm not entirely too sure how I plan on using this blog, sometimes I feel like blogs often feel outdated to people, and I can understand the sentiment. I guess you could say there might be days where I provide useful updates, though, it will likely be used for venting more than anything, I would rather let my fingers type away then pick up any bad habits, but here I am. These days it feels like my mind, always filled with ideas and plans, yet, at times, I can't even keep up with most of them. I will make a note here and there, attempt to put something down that I can work with, but it feels like I just don't have enough hands to do the job.

        I have been asked by family and friends, where do you find your inspiration for writing, where are you getting your ideas from? Honestly I wish I had a better answer, but my mind is a continues storm filled with scenarios and stories, I can see some of them vividly in my mind, and others at times feel like nothing more than a fever dream. I have always been creative, a bit of a daydreamer in my youth, but not because I was always thinking of the future, no, there was always several stories in my mind begging for release.

        Several years ago I came across an old journal I forgot I had, it was a gift, a beautiful leather bound journal pages filled with sporadic notes, an unorganized mess of poems, short stories, and what I think may have even been ideas for games. So here I am now, writing an epic fantasy, putting some of those ideas to paper (even if on a digital screen), and it can feel at times that I can't always keep up with my thoughts, I surely can't be alone in this. I don't consider it a burden though, I often enjoy taking the time to think about what I plan to write, though I will admit sometimes it just comes from the heart. 

        On this journey knowing that I am all in, I am putting together a massive world, I know that it can seem risky to some, but I can't allow myself to be filled with skepticism, if I want this endeavor to be successful then I need to have faith not only in my work, but myself as well. Sure I might make some mistakes here and there along the way, but thankfully Youtube has been an endless source of learning from other writers, and I have taken time to carefully research, and still do on a daily basis. Time will tell how this works out, but I won't easily give up, that just isn't in my nature. Maybe I'm too stubborn and hardheaded at times, but I will likely need to rely on that if I am to at least accomplish my dream.